Didn't wanted to even come back here. But..

But I aren't capable of letting go. It sounds really easy, but yet again, as I try, it's excruciatingly hard. I want to run away from everything, and anything. I can really conceal my feelings and pain. I can hide it all, but I can't keep it for any longer. It's too hard. I'm just deluding myself everyday, living under the illusions and delusions, not even knowing which one is which anymore. I realized, after thinking back through, that maybe, it wasn't that you haven't gave any chance to me to mend things up; maybe you did, that's what I think now. Maybe you did, and I was too idiotic to point them out. Now that things are so cold here, will it ever come back? Sankari told me that you said you don't love me anymore. But still, yeah my heart does ache when I saw that text, but, yeah I bet you know what I'm gonna say next. Haiz. Give up? What's that?