Ridiculous.

It's been a whole week, one whole straight week without attempting to communicate with you. Well. Basically it's just routine work this week, eat, sleep, ball, study, go exam, slack, ball, home, slack, bath, eat and sleep again. Over and over again, just like songs in an iPod put on repeat. It's been semi-reality for me; trying to ignore anything about you so not to revive my hopes up again, and get crushed again. Anyway, today marks the the longest period of time you've been absent from my phone (never the heart, though). Also, it marks the day 11/11/11; people say it's a day that's really lucky, well idk, I'm just praying and hoping hard that your results will be good enough to promote you. I see a lot of people swaggering about their results online, yet I'm not courageous enough to try and ask you for yours; you'd tell me, no mood to talk le. Next, you'd say some hurtful and cold stuff all over again. But then, I'm really missing your presence. Should I brace up and come back to try and communicate all over again.. Or should I continue on with my hard-fought self-control?