The Fall. Day Ten.

Hey well. I don't know if I should feel happy or sad right now. You know, earlier today, I was very discouraged by you. I wrote a letter myself, specially just to hand it to you, to cheer you up regarding your results, and to also at the same time encourage you not to give up, and to assure you that failing isn't the end. Imagine that, it was 2 pages long, I really wrote it as a friend to really encourage you, and the moment I told you, you had no response.. just a "No thanks :>". Imagine that, it made me so melancholic. Yup really, I was just so disappointed. I know you are scared of retaining, well. I am worried over you too, very worried, to be honest, to be truthful. Yeah well, I can really empathize with your feelings. You don't understand how I can empathize, but I tell you, I have been past your experience now, and experienced worse.

I'm glad. I finally got your attention after I posted something on FaceBook out of disappointment, I posted, "It's too amazing how much people can change instantaneously." And after that, I went to sleep. First thing I didn't expect was you to reply when I wake up, you said "People think that other people attitude change so fast like nobody's business but maybe they are just putting an act in front of you?"

Finally. Finally, something related to me on your Wall. I know you were straight-away replying to my post. I know you saw. Yeah and thank god, I woke up, without meaning to, but still, I realized I couldn't give up yet, I was severely disappointed, I lost hope for a moment, but then, the path became obvious again. I thought and thought, even before I saw your reply, and I was wondering how, if I claim to love you so much, and if your love for me was real, how could I possibly leave you alone in the lurch when right now, though you appear not to be, are actually at your pit in life, at your wits' end, when right now, you need someone to be there for you even if you don't show them out. Yeah, I got it. Plus, I realized, I'm not a guy who gives up that easily, give me your best shot at your pretense. Much as you don't appear to care, I know you deep down, I know you do. I decided to put all my trust again, in you, like how I've always been. I just thought, if I just gave up so easily on this setback this time, I'd really regret it, next, I shouldn't be giving up that easily. I didn't come so far to give up, so.. yeah, after all these thoughts. I've decided to stay, and be by your side again. You can push me away all the times you like, as many times as you like, but, it'd be like during the bus ride home on 262, I would not budge. :D always there, always by your side. Lina. <3 I understand it now. I see it now. I am, re-motivated.