Idw to count anymore.

I don't care what day this is, I don't care what week this is, I don't care whatever anything is.. I came back today, I couldn't stand not talking to you. I couldn't stand missing you like hell. I came back. I tried again, I went for a second try, and a third try, and a fourth try, it was warm and brief, that one and a half hours when you talked to me, the gaping hole where my heart used to be was filled, temporarily. I know this can't be helped, but I risked, cause coming back would hurt me more when you go all silent again. I have no idea why you keep breaking off our conversation halfway; you don't want us to talk at all? Why aren't you making effort to keep this conversation alive even though you are there? I slept and I kept staring over at my phone, is it true you'd never text me on your own accord again? :/ I really love you a lot, and I don't want this to be happening..