My apology, though I know you can never see them.

I'm so sorry to be so emotional today. I'm really apologetic. I didn't mean to be so sarcastic nor did I wanted to plead with you and act like one really lame asshole. I'm sorry I scared you, I didn't mean to, seriously. I wasn't thinking straight at that time. I was just really upset.. I hope you don't mind. I hope we can still be friends. Forgive me? Now I've thought it all out, and I think I can really handle the fact that you are gone. Gone.